I lied

I lied.
I said that I had shed all the tears
I claimed that the pain was nonexistent
I told you that I was ok
I lied.

The sadness grows like a cancer,
spreading over the heart,
a poison of the brain
Filling me like water.

If only I could stop the flow
Turn off the river
Close the damn
Shut off the faucet

I'm drowning in sadness
Aeeking a way to be safe
And my place of refuge
has been taken away

I lied
I said I could let it go
I claimed I would move on changed and complete
I told everyone it wouldnt break me
I lied.