Perception is colored by expienece so I can understand why yours is always clouded.
When you search for the negative you will always find it.
If you look for flaws they will appear
And if you close yourself from love the only alternative is loneliness
Trust me I know.

People only see what they wanna see. If you search for a way out you will slowly convince yourself you have to leave... or vice versa.

There is what is, and what you chose to see...